Never Grow Up.. Never Fall in Love.

I really never thought I would ever, EVER say this.. but the new Alkaline Trio is pretty close to horrible. Maybe its not horrible.. but its not good. Not even a little.

I've been having an over a decade long love affair with this band and this album is almost heart breaking.

If I had to pick only one thing that made them amazing.. it would be the lyrics. They have written some amazing songs with lyrical gems like "and maybe i'll catch fire. something warm to hold me, something pure to burn away the darkness that hides inside my mind." and " He likes to spill all of his guts On the top of a well stocked bar
And then swallow them bit by bit remembering every scar As a valid reason for every drink" or how about " I'm dying tomorrow, Did I do it right Did I remember to sleep in, Take lots of pills or Commit irreversible sins."

I could write down words from their songs for hours.. and I can think back to a certain point in time.. being drunk, or sad or even really fucking happy and being so glad that I had their music to listen to. The memories they have given me are priceless but even beyond that.. The Alkaline Trio have been somewhat of a bonding thing between me and my sisters. I think they are the only band that all three of us absolutely love and we all get the same sick tingle when we listen to them. I have so many sister-memories involving them.. from the time i played "Fuck you Aurora" in Rand's bookroom for Aimee to hear.. or when Aimee and I waited outside their bus like little fangirls just to be able to say Hi! to them and I still remember the heartfelt thing Aimee said to Dan about his songs. I remember driving to Cali for my birthday and fucking rocking out so hard with Wendy.. sweating and screaming along. Someday I will see to it that we really do get sister-tattoo's involving the whole "mishaps always happen in three's" idea.

I think all of that is why this new album is depressing me! There are no lines to fawn over. Not once did I hit the back button because I just had to hear that again.. in fact, I hit the forward button more than once. Their previous album Crimson almost left me speechless and this new one is making my mouth verbally vomit. I just hold those two boys to such high standards that writing songs with lyrics like " Love Love Kiss Kiss Bla Bla Bla" or " And I feel a miracle, In every breath that I breathe, Won't let this miracle, End in tragedy " is just not acceptable.

I guess they aren't boys anymore. They grew up and fell in love.

popcorn poppin' on the apricot tree.

Im trying to decide what i want to plant in my garden. I finally live in a real (well soon to be real..) house with a real yard and conveniently there is already a garden area in the back yard! I've looked online and have learned that utah is actually really great for growing most things, especially tomatoes, beans and squashes. I need to come up with a concrete list of what i want to grow because i need to get my seedlings going! I only have about a month until i should plant when there is no risk of frost n' shit.

Any suggestions?

Jills gettin' hitched!

Im leaving in about 10 hours to head down to southern utah to be with one of my most awesome friends as she gets married! Its so funny to think back to almost 7 years ago when I met Jill. I was 18, had just moved across the country and was working at Hot Topic. She was my manager and she kind of scared the shit out of me. She was moody and bitchy but I soon found out that she was RAD.. and moody.. and bitchy. We became friends pretty instantly and over the course of the next seven years I moved back to utah, she moved out here a while later.. we lived together, didn't live together, loved eachother, almost hated each other, and two years ago I helped her drive back to massachusetts when she decided it was time to move home. Since then she has become a mama and soon to be a wife. I feel totally lucky that I even get to go down there to help her out since it was such short notice but it should be a good time! I get to meet her little baby too :)

I have another two hours of work to do before i can even go to bed so I should get back to that!

Curly haired smiley faces

Last night I did something I really thought I would never succumb to doing. I bought a big white sheet of poster board and using a big black sharpie I graphed out a calender. My mom used to make these every month, and mine is pretty much identical minus the curly haired smiley faces. I have a lot to do before I leave on vacation and I figured it might help me stay organized.

If I start leaving curly haired smiley face notes in the dishwasher stating their clean/not clean status, or post it notes stuck to my dashboard just shoot me.